You make me want to slit my throat.

"Love don't live here anymore,
Just emptiness and memories,
Of what we had before,
You went away."
Oh Dallas Green, you are talented.

These past few days have been quite amazing experience.
They have opened my eyes up, and let me see.

Wednesday; I went shopping with Jamieson, for Nicole's birthday present.
I wasn't in the mood at all, but I knew as soon as I saw my wonderful best friend, I would be okay.
I felt so happy when I was with her, and then we saw Lachlan and Zakk and their friends and Lachlan's hair is really short now and I was all like Wowow.
But yeah, then we went to office works and got stuff for Nicole's birthday present.

Thursday; I slept in really late, and it was nice.
Then Yasmin came over, and we tried to play my Nintendo 64 but it wouldn't work. >.<
So we ended up just being lazy and chatting.
Then we made Nicole's birthday present, an uber amazing tee shirt with an alpaca on the front and McFries across the back. :3
And a booklet type thing, of all the sick, sexual and perverted notes we wrote last year and put them anonymously in Lachlan's locker for months.

We then went back to Yasmin's house and chilled, and then we wen't crazy, and took some lovely photos.
And we called a few people at like, three in the morning, but the only one who answered was Lachlan, so I was singing You Are My Sunshine and he joined in singing, and it was amazingly funny.
So we chatted for a bit, and then slept.

Friday; Nicole Capper's/McFries' birthday party.
Possibly the most amazing party ever.
I was feeling quite sick and vomited a few times before going, but nothing was going to stop me from seeing her face when she saw her present.
It actually made me really happy, to see her face when she opened her present, she obviously loved it. :3
I must admit, it was a great present.

I still didn't feel well, so I pretty much just sat while the party was going, obviously gaining my strength for my spastic attack. (this will be explained later)
My feet got really cold, so I went and got socks, and the lovely Lachlan rubbed them warm. ;D
I must say he's a talented foot warmer.

After everyone had left, it was just The Gang.
(Nicole, Jamieson, Afton, Keasha and Dayne)
Possibly the coolest people you will ever meet.
We sat around talking and stuff, till idk.
And then Nicole was like, I want a chicken roll.
So I was like, I'll make it, seeing as I'm a woman and haven't been in the kitchen for a while.

So yeah, I got in the kitchen and made chicken rolls for everyone and a coffee for myself. Nicole took photos of my womanly-ness.
We then realized it was two in the morning.

So Nicole like, pretty much fell asleep, Jamieson tried to sleep, and I had, had a coffee, so yeah, I was going crazy.

My craziness rubbed off on Dayne, Keasha and Afton.
But yeah, some funny shit happened that night.
Like, my retarded giggling and laughing.
And Jamieson going off her rocker at us and left the room, we though she went to the other couch, but we then realized she'd slept under the pool table. Ahaha.
Then Dayne later on wanted to get a drink, but being too scared in case he woke Jamieson and she bit his head off.
Ahahaha.

Saturday; I slept, and slept.
The depression was there, niggling it's way back into me.
My father went nuts at me for not making my bed.
I called Lachlan, close to tears, at around twelve.
We talked for a bit, and it was really nice.
I also spoke to Celeste, she makes me smile lots.
And then my phone died, but I felt a lot better.

Sunday;
I did homework, and sat around feeling sorry for myself.
Dreading school, dreading socialization, yet still yearning it.

Monday; I got up and went to school.
And I honestly felt like crying.
I want Tilba Tilba.
I don't want to be here anymore.
I feel I don't fit in.
The cold weather was amazing though. ♥

And I just want to say thank you, to everyone I saw over those past few days.
You guys really helped me stay out of depression. ♥

I have realized that;
I'll never be good enough.
I'll never stop caring for Justin.
I'll never stop loving Ned.
I'll never stop being grateful for my amazing friends.
♥