Skinny

The one thing every girl is craving to be.

I'm probably not helping myself, but sitting here looking at all the skinny girls.
Fighting the will to vomit everything I ate back up and resume my non eating ways.

But fuck;
I want to be skinny.

I want to dye my hair, change my clothes.
I want change, drastic change.

I've been so afraid of change, and now, I'm begging for it.

I haven't walked Tess in weeks, I feel so guilty.

I'm going to start;

• Drinking green tea as a substitute for food.
• Walking Tess everyday.
• Go out less, to stay away from take away.
• Convince the parents I'm amazingly happy with myself.
• Convince everyone else I'm okay.
• Somehow convince my best friend that my eating habits are fine.
  

I want to look like her, she's perfect.


Everytime I go on tumblr, I'm going to be motivated to lose more and more.